Monthly Archives: August 2010

Pedro Guzman Perez

Hey kids.

You know, until there’s comprehensive immigration reform in the U.S., then we have to battle the injustices one at a time. Sad, but true.

Take a moment to support Pedro Guzman, his wife Emily and their son Logan.

Pedro’s been in detention for the past 11 months-almost one year. He’s presently in the Stewart Detention Center in Lumpkin, GA. Emily lives with their son Logan in North Carolina. Pedro, quite simply, is losing hope.

I’d like to include a paragraph from Emily’s letter of support:

Dear Honorable Immigration Judge,

My name is Emily Nelson Guzman.  I write this letter in support of my husband, Pedro Perez Guzman (Pedro), as he seeks to be released from the custody of the Department of Homeland Security (DHS)—whether that be on his own recognizance or upon payment of bond.

I met Pedro in Minneapolis, Minnesota in the year 2000.  We were young and neither of us had cars and we were both waiting for the bus.  He asked me what time it was, even though he had a watch.  Soon, after running in to each other consistently in the neighborhood, he asked me out for Valentine’s Day and that was our first date.  It was very romantic and we fell in love quickly.  Pedro had left California to turn over a new leaf and clean up his life.  He was tired of being in the “wrong crowd” and needed to put some space between himself and the bad influences in his life.  I was in college studying child psychology at the University of Minnesota.  We both wanted to improve our lives for the better and, as we began dating, we taught each other wonderful and important things.  He shared with me his spontaneity, industriousness, cleanliness, equality in a relationship, the importance of family, and passion for justice.  I shared with him academic vocabulary, vulnerability, compassion, making a home, communication of feelings, the importance of education, and unconditional love.  We have grown and shared so much over the almost ten years we have been together.  He supported me through undergraduate school, and then through my Master’s program.  At first, Pedro was skeptical of the world of psychological therapy, but he grew to appreciate it and ended up advising other friends and family to seek help.  I supported him through truck driving school.  We both wanted a better life than what we had before we met each other, and together we have made a wonderful life and family.  He changed my life and I changed his.

You can read the rest of her letter here.

Pedro’s story is complicated. My husband has a complicated story. Many deportees or immigrants under the threat of deportation have complicated stories. There are deep reasons for that, and many of them are connected to issues around race and class.

I ask that you take the time today to work through the details and send a letter to Secretary Jane Napolitano, Department of Homeland Security.

And hold your loved ones closer tonight, if you can.


Landslide

Hey kids.

What I really want to talk about today must stay in my heart.

Everything’s cool. It’s just that there’s a clear and definite line about what I want to write about and what’s fit for public consumption ;-)

Give me a day to regroup and recharge, and I’ll be back :)

So I’m cashing in a rainy day pass with Stevie Nicks. The older I get, the more that this song speaks to me.

What songs are on your top ten list? This is definitely one of mine.

*Update: So if you click on the link, it will take you to the video.* Ah, Mondays!

Late August, 2010

Hey kids.

As August of 2010 comes to a close, I woke up this morning thinking about the fact that it was at some point during mid-August of 2001 that I arrived to Mexico.

The exact date of when I was reunited with R again is lost. But I know that it was August of 2001.

At the time, I was working as an executive assistant in the sales department of a relatively large company in Chicago. I was also working as a server for a caterer on weekends.

I was at the office late one night, doing something that I dreaded as an executive assistant: Putting together sales packets for an upcoming presentation for a member of the sales team.

I snapped that night. What was I doing, literally on my knees, hunched over the packets, checking them over and over again to make sure that the pages were correct?

What was I hiding from? Why wasn’t I in Mexico with R?

I had visited R in Mexico in June of 2001, over the course of a long weekend. We had a lot of extremely painful and gut-wrenching things to say to each other face-to-face.

We did that. And R invited me to come live with him in Mexico. I said yes, but I kept putting it off, citing credit card bills and wanting to save money before I left.

In my situation, I now know that it was because I was afraid to come to Mexico and face facts about myself as an individual, as well as my marriage.

Years later, R told me that when he said goodbye to me after that long weekend in June of 2001, he was sure that he was never going to see me again. Even though I said yes to his invitation to come and live with him in Mexico.

He watched me go through the gate at the Benito Juárez airport in Mexico City. When I turned to look at him, he was already walking away.

There was a tremendous amount of damage and anger between us. I don’t blame him for feeling that way. At that point, giving R my word had all of the weight of a soap bubble in a thunderstorm.

And yet, my initial hesitation about moving to Mexico never tangled with a fear of physically living in the country. My physical safety was never part of the decision-making process in 2001.

While there was always violence in Mexico, starting from way before I arrived, it is definitively different now.

And the lefty-leaning liberals in the U.S. can talk all they want about U.S. media machines churning out biased pieces that are “ruining” Mexico’s “good name.”

There’s a piece of that in this whole mess, sure.

But the fact that I no longer go outside our house by myself after dark to walk down the street to the grocery store speaks to a whole other truth as well.

Right now the common thought is that as long as you don’t play a part in the Mexico-U.S. drug drama, you will not be touched.

But my feeling today is that the safety catch on that idea is already removed.

May I be completely and totally wrong. I truly hope so.

Time will tell us, won’t it? Time will tell.

72 Names

Hey kids. Let’s go straight to the point today:

I’m deeply haunted by the 72 bodies.

Don’t know what I’m talking about? Read here.

The victims were from El Salvador, Ecuador, Honduras and Brazil.

They had names. Families. Loves. Lives.

The image of their piled-up bodies is flashed up on the TV screen constantly here in Mexico.

Some of the bodies look like they are in the yoga position Child’s Pose.

But this is so very far, so truly far away from child’s play.

Mexico’s politicians come out all swagger and puffy-chested around SB1070. Thumping on desks and fiddling with expensive ties as they speak righteously into the microphones.

Of course. It is so much easier to appear fierce when it’s not your backyard.

The accountability and responsibility gets washed away in the rainstorms, leaving no trace.

No trace at all.

Canada’s Immigration Quagmire

Hey peeps.

It’s good that I’m not doing video today, because I’m all kinds of sadness and rage today.

There’s a tremendous amount of craziness going on in the U.S. and Mexico. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, well, then, you’re just not paying attention.

But I want to talk about something that won’t hit the news today: Canada.

This was brought on by events that happened to a dear friend.

I’m really so tired of Canada being perceived as this gentle and benevolent relative, the sweetly nutty “good cop” to the U.S.’s “bad cop.”

In a previous post, I talked about how R wasn’t allowed into Canada in 2007, when he was allowed to enter without any problems the previous year, 2006.

Here’s the excerpt from the Canada section of my show. You should take a seat, because it is definitely not short and sweet.

The summer of 2006, Roberto went to Canada, to Toronto.  He answered an ad on craigslist for a man I’ll call Steven who was looking for a Mexican to come and do carpentry and construction work on his house.  Steven got Roberto a direct flight to Toronto, because Roberto can’t even change planes in the US.  He entered Canada without a problem, using a letter of invitation from Steven.  He worked off the books for a few months, earned some good money, had a great time, came home happy.

Steven really liked Roberto’s work, and he invited him to come back again the next summer, the summer of 2007.  Everything was the same, the direct flight from Mexico, the letter of invitation.

Roberto got off the plane and arrived to the immigration area at the Pearson International Airport, in Toronto.   A Canadian immigration official asked Roberto if he’d ever been arrested.  Roberto was nervous.  He said no.  He figured that he’d never been arrested in Mexico, where he was coming from, or Canada, where he was going to.  And his pride got a little bit in the way as well.

The immigration official told him to take a seat.

In 2006, Roberto was not asked by Canadian immigration officials if he’d ever been arrested.  Roberto had time to think when he was sitting in that chair, and when the official who stopped him walked by, Roberto said, “You know, I thought about your question and I have been arrested, but in 1993, in the United States.”  “I know,” the official said, “It came up on my screen.”

Now Roberto started to get nervous.  There was a group of Mexican men, detained from the two flights that came in from Mexico City.

The immigration official escorted Roberto down to baggage claim.

On the way down Roberto did a last-ditch attempt and said to the official, “You know, I entered Canada last year without any problems and I had a great time in your country.”  “Yeah,” the official said, “Whoever let you in last year was not doing their job.”

Roberto picked up his luggage, and the customs agent asked him if he’d ever been arrested and now Roberto knew the right answer: Yes, in 1993 in the United States.

The customs agent ran a swab all over Roberto’s suitcase.  He analyzed the results.  Who else has been in possession of this luggage?  he asked Roberto.

A week before, I came to the States, Colorado, and my mother’s house in New York.  Then the suitcase came back with me to Mexico, and I put it up on the shelf in our closet, where it always went.

The customs agent said, “Your suitcase is testing positive for traces of cocaine.”

Now, I don’t do cocaine.  Roberto doesn’t do cocaine. My mother doesn’t do cocaine.  Set-up? I don’t rule out that possibility.

Roberto was escorted back upstairs to the immigration area.  All of the men were taken into a small room, one by one.  When Roberto entered that room, he was told to sign the documents that were on the table.  Roberto refused.  The Canadian immigration officials were surprised.  He was the only one from the group of detained men who said no. They thought that he didn’t understand English.

An interpreter told him in Spanish that he had to sign the documents.  Roberto answered in English that he would not sign them.  He was escorted out of the room.

All of the men, except for Roberto, signed the documents. All of the men, except for Roberto were handcuffed and paraded out through the International Arrivals exit, where they were taken to a Canadian jail for the night.  Roberto was not given an explanation as to why he didn’t go with the group. Roberto was only told to stay seated on his plastic chair.

Apart from the fact that Roberto didn’t sign any documents that day, he and I both think he was treated differently because of Steven, the guy Roberto was going to work for.  On his letter of invitation, it stated that Steven worked for one of the biggest banks in Canada.  Steven is also a well-dressed white male, with blonde hair and blue eyes.

And he kept checking up on Roberto.  He either spoke to the Canadian immigration officials in person, or called them on his Blackberry.  No one else in the group of detained men had someone checking after them.

So we feel that Canadian immigration officials did not want to push Roberto to sign any documents that day, because then he would be paraded handcuffed, through the International Arrivals exit, where blonde-haired, blue-eyed well-dressed banker Steven could see him.

Roberto was forced to stay seated on that plastic chair all night.  He wasn’t given any food or water.  When the air conditioning came on full blast at 3:30 in the morning, he wasn’t given any type of covering.  He got a rash around his waist for sitting for so many hours.

I received a call from Steven around midnight in Mexico.  He told me that Roberto was not allowed to enter Canada, he didn’t know why.  I truly started to panic.  I knew how things could turn on a dime, and half an hour later your husband is handcuffed, in a prison uniform, behind bullet proof glass.

At first light, I called my Canadian friends, and we all started calling around.  If you ever need to call the Detention Center at Pearson International Airport, be prepared to be sent directly to voice mail, no matter what time you call, no matter how many times you call.

When my Canadian friends tried other numbers, they were told they couldn’t be given any information, because they weren’t family.  When I tried those same numbers I was told that I couldn’t be given any information because I couldn’t prove that I was Roberto’s wife.

8am, 9am, 10am, the day after Roberto left Mexico and I don’t know where my husband is.  I finally called the Mexican consulate in Toronto, and a representative called me back quickly and told me that Roberto was indeed on a flight back to Mexico City that would arrive at 12:30 in the afternoon.

The Mexican men who were sent to prison overnight were brought back to the airport in the morning.  Many of them had never been in prison before; they were scared out of their minds and hadn’t slept. They were surprised to see Roberto, still sitting there on a plastic chair.

Roberto had to sign one document, if he was to leave Canada that day.

If Roberto didn’t sign that document, that voluntary removal form, then he’d have the “choice” to contest the fact that he wasn’t allowed to enter Canada.  He’d go to jail for approximately two weeks and then go before a Canadian immigration judge.  Depending on how the judge ruled, he’d either go back to Canadian jail, or be deported from Canada.  Obviously, there wasn’t really a choice.  He signed the form.

Roberto was escorted to the gate to board the plane by the same Canadian immigration official who had detained him the day before.  And he appeared to have a change of heart.  “Listen,” he said, “get the police report of your arrest from 1993, and depending on the immigration officer, you could enter Canada as early as tomorrow afternoon.”

Roberto just stared at him. Burned holes with his eyes.  “What would make  you think I’d ever want to come back to Canada again?”

Roberto came back home to Cuernavaca broken, angry and ashamed.  He said that he needed to get out for a while, to clear his head.  He went to work in Ciudad Juárez, for three weeks in construction, under that burning sun and whip-like sandstorms.  I finally begged him to come home, and he came back quietly, making sure not to slam our front door when he arrived.

In the summer of 2007, Roberto didn’t try to enter the United States.  At this level of the game, that wouldn’t have made any sense.  He tried to enter Canada, a country that had welcomed him with open arms just the year before.  The issue of him working off the books never came up.  It was all about his arrest from 1993 in the US.

Canada supposedly has its own set of policies and procedures for handling detained immigrants.  When we were looking for Roberto, my friends assured me that Canada was not the United States.  Sure, immigrants were detained, but they were taken to an average hotel, they had a bed, a shower, and a meal.

Granted, there was a guard outside the door, but they were treated humanely.  Canada, was not the US.  Many Canadians often smugly pride themselves for not being the US’s lackey on the world’s playground.

What does this mean for the future?  If we want to visit England one day, will Roberto not be allowed in because England is in a political relationship with the US, and something will come up on the airport computer screen?  Will there be other countries that Roberto won’t be able to enter?

Will I, one day, not be allowed to enter the US or Canada or any other country because I’m his legal wife? Is my husband on some terrorist list, as a gun-toting Mexican who does cocaine?  Am I on some terrorist list, as the legal wife of a gun-toting Mexican who does cocaine?

Kids, that’s where I’m at today. In my opinion, Canada is not safe space for couples with undocumented experiences in the U.S.

Another country’s door closed for Roberto and I. And in some ways, the Canada episode cut more deeply than Roberto’s deportation from the U.S.

Incredible, but true.

The Deportee’s Wife is Falling Down, Falling Down, Falling Down…

By Sam Brown www.explodingdog.com

Drawing: “Falling Down the Stairs to Save Time” by Sam Brown www.explodingdog.com

Hey Kids!

So today is the last day of the campaign! And I still have video to make thanks to some awesome Activators!

However, for those of you who speak Spanish, I talked in yesterday’s video about getting my clothes off the line during the bad rainstorm last night.

I left the clothes in a sopping wet pile on the landing.

Late last night, the rain stopped. I decided to hang the clothes back up again, so that they wouldn’t be sitting in a puddle of wet. You know how when clothes sit sopping wet for too long, the colors start to bleed?

Anyway, I hung the clothes back up. My flip-flops got very wet. I stepped onto the wet landing for the stairs.

And then I flew! I fell down six steep steps plus the landing.

So all that to say that I’m in one piece, with nothing broken:)

But I banged up my elbow and quite frankly, my butt! lol

And because the universe is trickster, sitting in front of my computer and typing hurts like a mofo today, due to the butt and elbow injuries:)

I’m taking some anti-inflammatory stuff that is a punch to the gut. And if I’m already anxious about how I appear on video, the loopiness from the painkillers won’t help! lol

So the campaign will formally close tomorrow! And I swear that this isn’t a last-hour ploy for more funds! hee hee

Really, on the whole, I’m in one piece. I just don’t want to push my body today, just to be on the safe side.

Alright kids, be careful on those stairs! lol


“Anchor Babies”

Hey kids.

My Mexican mom had papers when she gave birth to me in the U.S. And my Dad was born and raised in New York.

Yet, in 1970, I was one U.S. Immigration stamp away from falling into today’s shameful and humiliating 14th amendment debate.

And if R and I had kids when we were in the States, then the kid or kids would be right in the thick of it right now. I know many people who are in this situation as we speak, i.e., one or two undocumented parents in the U.S.

And what if R and I have kids in the future? What if we adopt? What if R never enters the U.S. again? What does that mean in today’s political sphere?

You know, as I’ve mentioned earlier, I felt very much alone when R was deported in April of 2001.

But you know what? I think that at this point I’d take the loneliness any day over the what’s happening in the U.S. now.

Today in 2010 I have a community. Today in 2010 I connect with more and more people that understand what I’ve lived through/am living through/will continue to live through.

And yet today in 2010, I feel a fear and a rage that I never could have imagined in 2001.

There’s a question that I ask at the end of my show, The Deportee’s Wife about R possibly not being allowed to enter other countries in the future, due to their political relationship in the U.S. (As was the case with him and Canada in 2007.)

And I ask if one day I may not be allowed to enter the U.S., Canada or any other country because I’m R’s legal wife.

Will those words come true during my lifetime? Jesus.

Today in 2010, unspeakable and unimaginable issues are slaughtered and slapped onto the U.S. political table, the blood still warm.

It almost makes me long for April of 2001. Almost.

DREAM Now Letters and News with Nezua

Hey peeps.

Here are two important links to check out  and support today:

The DREAM Now Letters to President Barack Obama. Here’s the statement from Citizen Orange:

For those of you that haven’t been following the DREAM Act closely, we’re currently in a fight for our lives to get the legislation passed. We have about a two month window to get it enacted and we’re pulling out all the stops. The fact that we’re doing so is perhaps best illustrated by the fact that undocumented youth have taken to getting themselves arrested in the offices of legislators, risking deportation. Despite these dramatic steps there’s still far too many people that don’t know what the DREAM Act is or have yet to hear from undocumented youth. That’s why I’ve helped start a social media campaign called the DREAM Now Letters to Barack Obama, where undocumented youth write letters to Barack Obama in an effort to raise awareness about the DREAM Act.

News with Nezua is the other.

At the end of this week’s video, Nezua asks his viewers for their financial support.

Nezua’s voice is challenging, on point, and in my opinion, must continue. Scroll down to the tamale image, where it says, “Help Support UMX!”

Please support them as much as you can and spread the word.

Gracias!


Canada, the US, and Hate Speech

Hey kids.

Let’s start off with my dear friend Corin. I’ll let her post speak for itself.

The U.S. crashed its way into R’s Canada plans as well, albeit in a different manner.

R entered Canada in 2006 without any problems and then was denied entry in 2007. I don’t want to go into the details right now, more than anything to protect Corin’s stress level.

What I will say about the issue is that while R entered the Canada without a problem in 2006, his denial of entry into Canada in 2007 was connected to a gun possession charge in the U.S. from 1993.

And that for over 24 hours, I did not know if my husband was detained, in a Canadian jail, or dead.

R was 19 years old when he received the gun possession charge. Didn’t pull it anyone. Was busted with it on a Greyhound bus heading towards New York. He’s the first to admit that it was stupid to have the gun on him-he was planning to sell the gun for food money.

How many of us did stupid things when we were 19? I know that I certainly did.

One difference was that I never got caught. How about you?

The second difference is that race and class plays a huge piece if you do get caught.

I can’t tell you all how many times I’ve had people come up to me after my show and tell me that either they themselves or a loved one were caught with drugs/some type of weapon/drunk driving, etc… and got off as lightly as possible.

Why? Because they’re usually white.

Why? Because English is usually their first language.

Why? Because their families usually had the means (aka the cash and the connections ) to clean it up and cover it over.

So while Corin’s present situation is very different,  it makes me furious all over again.

The second thing that hit me in the face today is the story of Carlos and Amy. They had an article in the Chicago Tribune today that I feel really spelled out in a frank matter how U.S. immigration places landmines between families.

What socked me so hard in the face were the nasty, vicious and inappropriate comments that were posted after the article. *Update* As of August 2, the Chicago Tribune closed the comments section for this article.

Listen, as I’ve discussed on earlier blog posts, we can agree to disagree about U.S. immigration reform.

However, there must to be safe space.

We need to come at each other with care in our eyes, respect and faith in our hearts.

Peeps, please post positive comments on both sites today, if you are so inclined. Let them know that they’re not alone.